June 2016

SENDING ALL OF MY LOVE TO YOU

Dear Friends and Readers, I thank everyone who has ever put up with me through out my life. A special shout out goes to the men in my life. I am an reactionary beast. My anger, disgust and disrespect and all my negative emotions are never based on what I am currently experiencing but has roots in my traumatic past. This understanding is a start. I used to think that

6 IS ALL YOU NEED

Dear Friends and Readers, Image my surprise when my research discovered that I, we have been drinking too much liquid. I had erroneously held  the belief that there was never such a thing as too much water. Turns out I  and a lot of other folks are wrong and have been for many years. For four decades  results from a test were misinterpreted   and we all  learned that we

LET THERE BE PEACE AND LET IT BEGIN WITH ME

My Dear Friends and Readers, Today there was a verdict in the trial of Officer Goodson, the police officer who was charged with the most serious crimes in the death of Freddie Gray.   Goodson was acquitted on all charges.  What this will mean, is still left to be seen on this gray overcast evening. My office is a few blocks from the court house where Goodson stood trial. There

SIX FEET UNDER AND BEING EASY ON MYSELF

My Dear Friends and Readers, Over the past two weeks I have watched five seasons of  the television show “Six Feet Under”.  A friend and former addict like myself, suggested I watch this show which went off the air 11 years ago, because it dealt with complex social issues in a dark but engaging way. The core of the show is a family in Los Angeles who owns a funeral

DO YOU HAVE A PROBLEM NOW?

My Dear Friends and Readers, The modern philosopher Eckhart Tolle has always scared me and I’m not sure why. Perhaps its because his thoughts on life force me to realize that I’ve been stuck in thought patterns and therefore actions which are not mine, but thoughts that I have unconsciously selected and I don’t know that I have. This year as I turn 60, my actions and thoughts have been

FROM BAD EVENTS LETS FIND THE LIGHT WITHIN AND SEND IT OUTWARDS

Dear Friends and Readers, There is a surreal quality about today. This weekend’s madness in Orlando Florida seems a very bad nightmare. The emotional weight of that tragedy seems more profound on a Monday when there is the structure  or monotony of work. Weekends, at least my weekends, are unstructured. Yes, I wake up, but there are no alarm clocks. There are no set meal times, no already scheduled activities.

PLEASE ANSWER THE CALL

          Photo by Charles “Bigmista” Johnson My Dear Friends and Readers, The beautiful photo I posted for this blog is reflective of my friend Annais. She had all the color and passion of the world and yet she was cloaked in darkness. I met Annais, which is not her real name, in Nantes France in 2002 where I had been living to escape the realities of

Beauty Stops the World on It’s Axis and Makes us Realize we are One.

 Painting by Mckella Dear Friends, Today I finished reading Janet Fitch’s book “Paint It Black.” The story takes place in Los Angeles in the 1980’s. If you had asked me what this book was about when I was half-way through it, I would have said suicide and it’s after math,but it’s not. The book is about childhood trauma running from one generation to the next. Fitch’s book is an interesting

HIGH ACHIEVER, PERFECTIONIST = ADDICTION?

Dear Friends and Readers, Over the past twenty years since I graduated from law school my family and friends have asked me how was it possible that I became a crack cocaine addict  a month after I had passed the Washington State bar. Up until now,  I had vague answers based on my own personal reflections. Now, however, Bar Associations have finally caught up to what’s trending in the legal