HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

My dear fellow Journeyers,
Today on my 60th birthday I am renaming this blog “myfellowjourneyers”.
I began writing this blog  at 3 o’clock in the morning, because  I have been unable to fall asleep.  I had many thoughts about how this day would look like. What it looks like is I am awake for the first three hours of my birthday. I had expected a 12:01am birthday wish  from a special person. It did not come. It’s a new decade. So maybe he will surprise me with flowers when I enter my condo later today. But that didn’t happen either. I am not sad. I realize that my circumstances have changed. But it has nothing to do with my birthday.
I had hoped to spend the day at Ocean City a beach I  became acquainted with when I was 13 years old. I had fond memories of that beach with my older sister and I hoped to return with new eyes on my 60th birthday .  But it’s raining and my plans to go to the beach have not occurred because the weather did not comply.
Instead I am going to take the best care of myself  today. I realize that  what happens and how it occurs is truly in my control. So I’m not sad. I’m not even disappointed. I have simply taken note of what has happened and pass no judgement either way. This is perhaps the best gift I have given myself.
 I had hoped to post a picture of myself in a bikini on a beach somewhere with a big smile on my face. That didn’t happen.
  One of the things I have learned is that life  does what life does .I’m glad to be able to take care of myself and to live the life that I have.
 Over the next year I hope to educate reflect  and inspire  each of you and perhaps to inspire myself .
I want to thank everyone who has wished me a happy birthday. I want to especially  acknowledge my dear friends of which I am so blessed to have and my family members who love me even when I am unlovable.
With all my love,
Brianna

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