My dear fellow Journeyers,
Today on my 60th birthday I am renaming this blog “myfellowjourneyers”.
I began writing this blog at 3 o’clock in the morning, because I have been unable to fall asleep. I had many thoughts about how this day would look like. What it looks like is I am awake for the first three hours of my birthday. I had expected a 12:01am birthday wish from a special person. It did not come. It’s a new decade. So maybe he will surprise me with flowers when I enter my condo later today. But that didn’t happen either. I am not sad. I realize that my circumstances have changed. But it has nothing to do with my birthday.
I had hoped to spend the day at Ocean City a beach I became acquainted with when I was 13 years old. I had fond memories of that beach with my older sister and I hoped to return with new eyes on my 60th birthday . But it’s raining and my plans to go to the beach have not occurred because the weather did not comply.
Instead I am going to take the best care of myself today. I realize that what happens and how it occurs is truly in my control. So I’m not sad. I’m not even disappointed. I have simply taken note of what has happened and pass no judgement either way. This is perhaps the best gift I have given myself.
I had hoped to post a picture of myself in a bikini on a beach somewhere with a big smile on my face. That didn’t happen.
One of the things I have learned is that life does what life does .I’m glad to be able to take care of myself and to live the life that I have.
Over the next year I hope to educate reflect and inspire each of you and perhaps to inspire myself .
I want to thank everyone who has wished me a happy birthday. I want to especially acknowledge my dear friends of which I am so blessed to have and my family members who love me even when I am unlovable.
With all my love,